Crossroads
leave me stuck
Standing in the moment
only my gut
to lead the way.

still? crossroads?

what did I think
I thought I thought
Thought and thought

And again, here
time to choose a path
The unknown

What do I know
What do I have to show
for what
I know.

In the now
Now is all there is
To know.

But still
I must go one way or another
Grateful for the dilemma

Oh, if only I was one of those
Who knew
All along
Who found their way through the maze
To contentment.

Did they back track?
You throw yourself into it
And then...pry yourself out.

Why the sadness
at this crossroad
Because I must choose

For the first time
Growth is not enough
to warrant the pain
Have I reached a plateau?

I know what I know and know it is enough
I am enough

Survival drives me
Not clout or vanity.
Survival, still?

God bless my soul.